I am one lucky lady.
(sorry, this is kind of long...)
Maybe it's just the hormones making me feel this way, but I've been extra happy for the most part over the past couple of weeks. I've REALLY appreciated Rick more, since he is working SO hard for us (12 hour work days plus school for his masters), and I have felt closer to my Heavenly Father lately too. I've really felt so blessed. I've had a few spiritual epiphanies lately too, that have helped me to feel this way. In one of the talks in conference, the apostle mentioned that he wrote down his feelings, and then he was able to learn more. I felt this yesterday, just as I was writing in my journal. I had a feeling that God is blessing us so much, partly because Rick is doing all that he can for us, and working SO hard. I have always had a testimony that the harder you work at something, the more you will be blessed. I just always thought it was for gospel topics like reading your scriptures, or praying. The older I get, the more I realize the work that needs to be put into gaining a testimony.
Since Rick is so busy working and with school, we try to maximize the hour or two that we get together every night, even though both of us are exhausted. Last night, was so nice. We really were able to spend some much needed good quality time together talking. We even read our scriptures together, which has been harder to do now with his schedule.
Last night when we were talking, and Rick asked me if I really believed that Paige could hear our voices and that she will recognize them when she is born. I said yes, so he immediately got down to her level and started talking to her. He introduced himself to her, and told her how excited he was to have her and how he's going to be the favorite parent and will give her money when she asks for it. He went on for a minute or so. I couldn't help but just cry. It was such a cute thing to see him so excited and loving her so much already. It makes my eyes tear up just thinking about it. Then, after that, she started kicking, and he was finally able to feel her kick a few times! It made me so happy.
Ever since we saw her on the ultrasound and found out she is a girl, it has seemed more real. It's been really exciting for both of us.
For those of you who don't know, we picked out the name Paige back when we were dating. Rick was the one who suggested it, because he loves Jimmy Paige - a famous guitar player - but little did he know, I had loved that name since middle school. If we were having a boy, we would have been in big trouble, because either we couldn't agree on a name, or it wouldn't fit.
We put a deposit down on an apartment home this week. We'll be moving next month. I really didn't want to like this apartment, I had my heart set on another one, but I couldn't help but feeling good and feeling at home when I walked through the apartment. It's a 2 bedroom apartment, with no one above or below us. We have a car port right outside of our door, plus an extra parking spot right next to it. We don't even have to take our trash out on trash day, the garbage man grabs our can right from its spot in our car port each week. We also have washer and dryer hookups, which the other apartment that I liked didn't have. It really feels like a "real" place, instead of just another basement apartment that we are renting out. I am sad to be leaving our ward, but I really do feel good about this place.
On Tuesday night my mom and I were able to spend some good time together. Part of the reason why I wanted a girl was because my mom is my best friend. I know I can't force my daughter to be my best friend, but I really want to have a good friendship with her. My mom always makes blankets for each of her grandchildren, so we went to pick out the fabric. We found the cutest things, and had such a good time. I also went with my mom to her mom's house to visit with my grandma. Once again, it's possible that this is the hormones talking, but it was so nice to spend some time with them both. For some reason, I have been missing my mom more than normal, even though I see her at least once a week now.
Sorry for rambling on and on, I just had a lot on my mind, and some free time.
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